Last month, I had an idea to use my tarot cards to determine what I would study each month from May to July. For May, I would study spellwork, June emotions and chaos, and July manifestation. Last month was great and though I started in the middle of the month, I feel like I've made good progress in terms of feeling more intuitive (especially about spellwork) and a little bit more in tune with the four elements. Since the cards told me that I would be learning things spontaneously in June (I assume now from the Carnivale rituals and from the deities I want to begin to work with), I wanted to give myself a bit of homework everyday. So I did a huge spread of 30 cards, one for each calendar day to determine what to study. Then I made my own calendar in my Book of Shadows and wrote down the topics for each day and did a basic color key (i.e. green for healing, abundance, manifestation). Basically, I drew my cards, read the description for the cards, then did my interpretation of that to create my schedule. Anyhoo, here is a rundown of what I will be studying this month~
How to stay motivated and not get burnt out
How to finish what you start
Why you shouldn't give in to fear
How to recognize potential (in yourself and others)
How to calmly and logically solve problems
Healing (with focus on the self)
Understanding the bigger picture
Making a pendulum (one of the non-mental mastery things haha!)
Free exploration--astral travel
Why love is the key to universal magick (I've heard this theory before and want to learn more about it)
Abundance, manifestation, creativity, inspiration
Reviewing goals and reflection (these are for the 21st and 22nd of the month--in time for the summer solstice~)
How to cope with negativity and break the cycle
Connecting to lunar and stellar energies
Destructive thoughts, negativity
Spontaneous magick (I feel like that can be a book title LOL)
Sharing knowledge
Some of the days have similar topics so I've kind of summed it all up above. But what I do is read what I have to do for the day, pull up some articles on it, write down some notes in my Book of Shadows (remember to write the source to go back to it and because plagiarism is not cool!), then do the little exercises they suggest. One of the things I did today was explore the inner child (not exactly on the list but higher self is there and she's been pushing me to do inner child and shadow working) and I was inspired to write down the activities I liked to do as a child and see how I was getting back into them lately. I've been more into the things I liked around middle and high school age, and somehow my days feel more fun ^^ it also forces me to rest and get away from my school work/other duties. It's nice to just chill out and indulge yourself in different stories and games and music. For the past two months I was really into mobile gaming but I've become a little bored of it and got restless... I felt like I didn't really enjoy it as much as I used to. So now I am rediscovering my old hobbies again and trying to get that inner child spark back. Being an adult is so tiringgggg *throws fake tantrum* I don't want to be so seriousssss lol
Anyhoo, I'll update more on what I learn for this month
and let me know if you guys do this kind of tarot to determine what you want to study too ^^
Even though change is scary, it can be rewarding and happiness will come my way. I had to change my way of thinking, that these changes were like planting seeds to my happiness. I sowed the seeds by taking certain actions, like visiting Japan and changing my major to Japanese, volunteering as an ESL teacher, and studying abroad in Japan (two times!). Now I am starting to see my seeds sprout and grow! It's not easy since I have to keep watering them and weeding the garden, and working hard towards my dreams, but that's the fun of it 
Also Bobby Chiu for the artist interviews, as well as Happy D. Artist about her stories and struggles 
