[quote="Joodhe"]This is just what I was looking for on this particular day, and it covers a lot of what I'm feeling.
I am searching to re-find elements of myself that I feel I've possibly lost due to faulty beliefs. I used to be so very powerful, and nowadays find myself questioning everything, even myself.
About a month ago I saw a guy on a YouTube video, he was the ex High Priest of some Satanic lineage. He came across as so strong (not to mention sexy, but that's another matter entirely

), and though I didn't realize then, it set wheels in motion for me. The other day I stumbled across some LHP material, and one thought led to another and another, and I quickly realized that my higher self was leading me to create a balance between LHP and RHP beliefs, that I need to embrace one to break through the dichotomy of beliefs that often breaks people's strength down.
So I need to get reading. Right now I can't do too much as I am in the middle of working three large projects. But when I can I will be here discussing LHP stuff and how to get started working with demons. I think I've already had my first two visits. The first one was before I realized all this and scared me quite a bit, the more recent one, I didn't realize at the time it was a demon and said "hi sexy!", lol...

[/quote] Joodhe you will find your way creating balance is something we all had to learn how to do ' with me it was fighting my Dark size for many years trying to please everyone but myself but once I realized that this my path that I had to find my own way do what felt right to me be true to myself , things begin to fall in place for me but it took some time ' it will happen for you just don't give up trying