Although I've had experiences in the past which were difficult to explain rationally, I've been lazy and afraid and never had the courage or will to go after them. For the past few months I've had dreams that I couldn't understand. Perhaps I'm the only one that can understand them and maybe it wasn't an entity that visited me in my dreams but I still would like to make this post. I had three dreams which felt noteworthy and I will describe them, perhaps these dreams are not connected, maybe they're just figments of my subconscious, nonetheless if it pleases you, I kindly ask for your guidance, opinions and interpretations. Naturally I have my own interpretations but I will not mention them in this post to not affect your opinion. If nothing comes out of this post let this be a proclamation of appreciation, respect and love for you and whomever came to me in my dreams. Even if I didn't manage to make contact in my conscious state yet, I learned somethings about myself. Thank you for reading my post.
First dream happened in spring 2021 reading Ars Goetia, before sleeping I asked a demon to appear in my dreams if they were interested to form a relationship with me. I dreamt I was under the sea in a familiar context(Aegean Sea)and there was a sea monster approaching me directly, with its gaping jaw and dreadful teeth. I was fearful, I didn't understand, I didn't engage & retreated. I woke up whilst a child(boy I think) was screaming near the shoreline. I did nothing to help him, I woke up in shame of my cowardice. However after waking up I recalled reading about a spirit that took the form of a sea monster(Forneus) and my intentions before going to bed, then it dawned on me, albeit too late. My confusion & fear left me as I was filled with a surge of positive emotions.. I regret not having the courage, not showing the respect and appreciation among other things.
Second dream, late spring/early summer 2021, a random night, spontaneously I have in my mind, similar intent & clarity, so in thought, I ask for another visitation. I am in the sea again, near the shoreline, however I cannot recognize this beach. There are others, humanoid shapes floating above the water but unlike the boy in the first dream they are not interested in our scene. Half my body is submerged as I look to my right, how can I describe to you what I witness.. Glorious, a great sea serpent, coiling above the sea towards my right side as the sea was falling off like a river gushing between rocks and stone, the sun streaks made its scales shimmer and reflect the light, colours of black and grey with hues of green and blue refractured with rays of light. It was euphoric, nonetheless I wasn't fearless, so fear grips me and I wake up.
Following weeks, I wrote a poem dedicated to my dreams and experience, later in the summer I go to the sea and do an intuitive ritual reading it out loud, chanting the enns of Forneus and Leviathan.
Third dream; late summer, short and powerful, a figure which appears to be a man with long draping flowing black hair, almost waist line height, behind him(?) blindingly bright shining circular aura of beaming white light so much so that all that I could make out was the hair and a white standing humanoid silhouette.
This is a part of my story, I never made conscious contact although I haven't tried hard. What do you make of it? Do you think there is something trying to make contact with me or I am merely affected by the things I read? if it was more than just a regular dream, who do you think it is? How would I go about forming a relationship with this entity.
I hope all goes according to your will.
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