Council/introduction
Posted: Thu Aug 04, 2022 4:26 am
Hello dear people,
since I have no idea how to go about this in addition to not wanting to clog any other board, I'll just start here with an introduction as well as some questions which prolly belong here.
So my name is Johannes, I'm 33 and I live in Germany. I find themes of death, darkness and decay very intriguing despite frightening. I have always been inclined with occult topics but was always scared to try anything. Throughout the years, I've even become roman catholic due to a love for black metal and a history of mental illnesses - I thought "the devil" was doing stuff to me, making me sick ... in order to beg to be healed. Quite the thing but I'm not ashamed of it - I simply came to the conclusion that 1. I don't want to submit to anyone, nor worshiping him or her, no god either, and 2. my mental health comes from a shitty childhood, not some ominous demons tormenting me (lol).
As I've already stated on discord, I'm practically inexperienced on this path of working with demons and the gods of the nightside. I read some books (by S. Connolly and A. Mason in particular) and tried some things, incl. rituals to conquer my fears, among other things.
I have heard many times to avoid working with infernal entities if you have mental health issues and that you need a proper foundation for profound workings. Well ... I did some things anyway, because I love to explore unknown territory, even if it might be dangerous. So far, I'm still here and I made some nice experiences.
However - there are 1000s of things, exercises, paths, schools and whatnot and I cannot decide which one to choose (and keep to it), because I find so many things interesting. This is for sure a faq: Where do I start ?
Together with this comes the following: Something interesting happened. Today, I listened to the zodiac sign reading (I am cancer) of Akelta which was a message from Lucifuge Rofocale basically saying: Embrace necromancy, death and darkness (to put it very shortly), death is healing, too. Then: This week's pick a card reading - I chose Euronymous' card, Prince of Death himself. I think this might be pointing me towards the direction of the death lords. Is there anyone experienced here who could point me towards maybe a ritual/meditation to get in touch with Euronymous and find out, whether he wants to work with me on myself ?
And last but not least: I've often heard that having a mentor is very beneficial. Now I know this is a lot to ask, but is there possibly someone here willing to get in touch with me (privately or publicly, I don't care) to maybe have a discussion about directions ?
Thank you for having me !
Everybody have a great day !
since I have no idea how to go about this in addition to not wanting to clog any other board, I'll just start here with an introduction as well as some questions which prolly belong here.
So my name is Johannes, I'm 33 and I live in Germany. I find themes of death, darkness and decay very intriguing despite frightening. I have always been inclined with occult topics but was always scared to try anything. Throughout the years, I've even become roman catholic due to a love for black metal and a history of mental illnesses - I thought "the devil" was doing stuff to me, making me sick ... in order to beg to be healed. Quite the thing but I'm not ashamed of it - I simply came to the conclusion that 1. I don't want to submit to anyone, nor worshiping him or her, no god either, and 2. my mental health comes from a shitty childhood, not some ominous demons tormenting me (lol).
As I've already stated on discord, I'm practically inexperienced on this path of working with demons and the gods of the nightside. I read some books (by S. Connolly and A. Mason in particular) and tried some things, incl. rituals to conquer my fears, among other things.
I have heard many times to avoid working with infernal entities if you have mental health issues and that you need a proper foundation for profound workings. Well ... I did some things anyway, because I love to explore unknown territory, even if it might be dangerous. So far, I'm still here and I made some nice experiences.
However - there are 1000s of things, exercises, paths, schools and whatnot and I cannot decide which one to choose (and keep to it), because I find so many things interesting. This is for sure a faq: Where do I start ?
Together with this comes the following: Something interesting happened. Today, I listened to the zodiac sign reading (I am cancer) of Akelta which was a message from Lucifuge Rofocale basically saying: Embrace necromancy, death and darkness (to put it very shortly), death is healing, too. Then: This week's pick a card reading - I chose Euronymous' card, Prince of Death himself. I think this might be pointing me towards the direction of the death lords. Is there anyone experienced here who could point me towards maybe a ritual/meditation to get in touch with Euronymous and find out, whether he wants to work with me on myself ?
And last but not least: I've often heard that having a mentor is very beneficial. Now I know this is a lot to ask, but is there possibly someone here willing to get in touch with me (privately or publicly, I don't care) to maybe have a discussion about directions ?
Thank you for having me !
Everybody have a great day !