Satan and Suns

I've traveled to the Spooky Realm several times now. The first time I stood at the space between here & there for a very long time. I could see Gravekeeper N. He just sat and waited for me, patient and calm. And amused. He said, "you paid to come here, yet you are too scared to enter. Why?" I really didn't know why I was frightened and then I wasn't sure why I'm paying for stuff. And then I passed through the portal and met him by his fire. I realized that I have fears around death & dying. I have fears around demons and dark beings. I have just soo many fears.
I also have internal blocks to the spiritual worlds, a strong voice saying it's all a bunch of crap.

And there he was again, Gravekeeper N. He stared straight into my eyes for awhile & then said, "you Know I am real." He imprinted on me that if I feel everything is unreal, beings on other side of veil don't exist, etc, then I am to hold onto him. His actuality and reality as a living being.

The trips have started blending, but here is one highlight:

Ey' and I walked about seeking anyone wanting to talk with us. The first one was mostly skeleton with some bits of flesh still clinging. They were on top of their grave laying down doing circles, like a car doing donuts at Dunkin Donuts. Around and around and around and around. They said this represents their life, which was so damn repetitive that they Must warn anyone who has ears to hear! A life with too much repetitive actions & thoughts is just circular and will cause one to waste their time & energies.

(Note: i posted the above roughly month ago on discord. One very lovely person asked me what I think it all means. Following are the thoughts I had:)

I would say the experience with Gravekeeper N was the most impactful and important. I've shied away from all things death & dying for over 50 years, yet I have natural necromantic skills. Incongruity there. Need to overcome my own obstacles and embrace all of my skills, not just the popular ones (besides..being a necromancer Is super cool lol).

The skeletan doing donuts was also impactful and important. They were very eye-catching and very easy to understand. So, an initiation into speaking with the Dead in this region. Letting me know I can visit anytime and actually see & speak with & understand the Dead Ones. A welcome! And do please come back again!

Additionally, there are aspects of my life that are soul-draining bc so repetitive and monotonous. Monotonous repetition, repetitive monotony!!!!!

The best part of the Spooky Realm is that Gravekeeper N is now my February 2024 Death Demon to work with!! I feel very grateful and am excited to see what work we do!!

What a cool journey you have!! I’m so glad the spooky realm is helping.

rainsunshinefrog wrote: ↑

Thu Apr 04, 2024 2:13 pm

What a cool journey you have!! I’m so glad the spooky realm is helping.

Ahh thanks rainsunshinefrog!
My journey sounds interesting bc I studied and practiced writing in English a Lot as a kid. So the words flow fairly easily most of the time.

Back to the Spooky Key...
I highly recommend the Spooky Key. Also recommend anything from SNS that connects us to Death Deities, therefore Dead Ones. Like, a Dark Orb of Necromantic Whispers. A Lowborn or Spectral companion, etc, etc. Soooo many options here.

Here is why:
I believe that A) humans really need to let go of ancestral and familial bindings. Almost everyone appears to be tied tightly and staked to a pole in the middle of an inhospitable field.

Why? We think that's human existence.

Our Ancestors told us to believe we are staked, tied, alone. And to be cheerful about it. Cheerful...blinded, staring into a scorching sun that weakens and robs our energies. And we can do nothing about it.

Probably, possibly this all began unintentionally. Sentient species rarely commence existence with a mean spirit. That comes later as the body bloats and the being starts tearing & eating at itself.
Gross, I know.

I also believe that B) humans can change now. They have to change now. Because it's time.

And, C) we change by talking to others. Specifically who are Dead. And who live with the Dead. And, thankfully also by talking with necromancers. Because they talk to the Dead lololol.

Not silly and misguided like the band The Grateful Dead.
Not angry and dashing forward blindly like...too many to list.
But, empowered. Having un-staked, un-tied, reunited with others. Having released the mean spirit that Is Not Us.

This was such a beautiful experience to read! I admit, I have the spooky key and have been a little afraid to go, too. Not sure it's because I fear death? Maybe I do. Who knows. There's so many shadows that still need to see the light of day. But, you've inspired me. I'm gonna have to buckle down and experience this.

wraithey wrote: ↑

Tue Oct 15, 2024 8:21 am

This was such a beautiful experience to read! I admit, I have the spooky key and have been a little afraid to go, too. Not sure it's because I fear death? Maybe I do. Who knows. There's so many shadows that still need to see the light of day. But, you've inspired me. I'm gonna have to buckle down and experience this.

I would say do it. There have been times I have had challenges with different meditations or doing magical things. I will ask my companions to join me and help. They do, and it usually turns out great. So yes, as your companions to join and help you.

Wynd Runner wrote: ↑

Tue Oct 15, 2024 7:11 pm

wraithey wrote: ↑

Tue Oct 15, 2024 8:21 am

This was such a beautiful experience to read! I admit, I have the spooky key and have been a little afraid to go, too. Not sure it's because I fear death? Maybe I do. Who knows. There's so many shadows that still need to see the light of day. But, you've inspired me. I'm gonna have to buckle down and experience this.

I would say do it. There have been times I have had challenges with different meditations or doing magical things. I will ask my companions to join me and help. They do, and it usually turns out great. So yes, as your companions to join and help you.

Another amazing idea! Truth be told, I am still really really bad at asking companions for help. It's something I constantly apologize for because I KNOW that's why they're here and that's why I brought them into my space. Only to hesitate to ask for said help. Make it make sense. xD

May I ask, how can they help in this instance? Help pave the way to the Spooky portal?

wraithey wrote: ↑

Wed Oct 16, 2024 6:00 am

Wynd Runner wrote: ↑

Tue Oct 15, 2024 7:11 pm

wraithey wrote: ↑

Tue Oct 15, 2024 8:21 am

This was such a beautiful experience to read! I admit, I have the spooky key and have been a little afraid to go, too. Not sure it's because I fear death? Maybe I do. Who knows. There's so many shadows that still need to see the light of day. But, you've inspired me. I'm gonna have to buckle down and experience this.

I would say do it. There have been times I have had challenges with different meditations or doing magical things. I will ask my companions to join me and help. They do, and it usually turns out great. So yes, as your companions to join and help you.

Another amazing idea! Truth be told, I am still really really bad at asking companions for help. It's something I constantly apologize for because I KNOW that's why they're here and that's why I brought them into my space. Only to hesitate to ask for said help. Make it make sense. xD

May I ask, how can they help in this instance? Help pave the way to the Spooky portal?

Thank you!

I will tell you a short story . . . my second companion, who I call Zoey (an Arachne Apothecary), came into my life. I was going through a lot at the time. I was too nervous to ask for help even though her scroll said she would help with quite a few things. She had been with me about two to three weeks when I was having some problems. She finally said to me, "don't you want my help?" lol

I realized I had to ask her, and that she wanted to help. I nervously said yes. She was more than happy to help. It took me a some time to get over my nervousness to ask my companions for help, but now I can do so without issue.

They can help you in this situation in many ways. They can help you calm your mind and energies to go into the meditations and portals easier. Some can even help you exit your body and travel. Just make sure to ask. I find they respect our boundaries to a fault in that I have to ask for help more times than not. Also, ask them directly how they can help in this and other situations. Some of their answers may surprise you.

The companions we have seem to be natural travelers. So, you can also invite them to join you in your meditations, dreams, and other travels. It definitely makes it more interesting and fun!

Wynd Runner wrote: ↑

Fri Oct 18, 2024 7:45 pm

Thank you!

I will tell you a short story . . . my second companion, who I call Zoey (an Arachne Apothecary), came into my life. I was going through a lot at the time. I was too nervous to ask for help even though her scroll said she would help with quite a few things. She had been with me about two to three weeks when I was having some problems. She finally said to me, "don't you want my help?" lol

I realized I had to ask her, and that she wanted to help. I nervously said yes. She was more than happy to help. It took me a some time to get over my nervousness to ask my companions for help, but now I can do so without issue.

They can help you in this situation in many ways. They can help you calm your mind and energies to go into the meditations and portals easier. Some can even help you exit your body and travel. Just make sure to ask. I find they respect our boundaries to a fault in that I have to ask for help more times than not. Also, ask them directly how they can help in this and other situations. Some of their answers may surprise you.

The companions we have seem to be natural travelers. So, you can also invite them to join you in your meditations, dreams, and other travels. It definitely makes it more interesting and fun!

Thank you for sharing that. i think I really needed to hear it. I guess I had always assumed ( maybe even hoped, lol )that since they were in my space I wouldn't need to ask. We energetically matched, right? but, just because you're someone's friend on the physical plane doesn't mean you can barge into their life and change everything without permission so, it makes sense.

It's a shadow to not ask for help and it's one I need to work on. There's a companion in my space to help me work on fear and maybe that's a good place to start.

wraithey wrote: ↑

Sat Oct 19, 2024 4:47 am

Wynd Runner wrote: ↑

Fri Oct 18, 2024 7:45 pm

Thank you!

I will tell you a short story . . . my second companion, who I call Zoey (an Arachne Apothecary), came into my life. I was going through a lot at the time. I was too nervous to ask for help even though her scroll said she would help with quite a few things. She had been with me about two to three weeks when I was having some problems. She finally said to me, "don't you want my help?" lol

I realized I had to ask her, and that she wanted to help. I nervously said yes. She was more than happy to help. It took me a some time to get over my nervousness to ask my companions for help, but now I can do so without issue.

They can help you in this situation in many ways. They can help you calm your mind and energies to go into the meditations and portals easier. Some can even help you exit your body and travel. Just make sure to ask. I find they respect our boundaries to a fault in that I have to ask for help more times than not. Also, ask them directly how they can help in this and other situations. Some of their answers may surprise you.

The companions we have seem to be natural travelers. So, you can also invite them to join you in your meditations, dreams, and other travels. It definitely makes it more interesting and fun!

Thank you for sharing that. i think I really needed to hear it. I guess I had always assumed ( maybe even hoped, lol )that since they were in my space I wouldn't need to ask. We energetically matched, right? but, just because you're someone's friend on the physical plane doesn't mean you can barge into their life and change everything without permission so, it makes sense.

It's a shadow to not ask for help and it's one I need to work on. There's a companion in my space to help me work on fear and maybe that's a good place to start.

This is something I usually forget, to ask my DCs for help. I have to really work at telling myself that they are not here for payment with offerings etc. I still wish I could give them something more, it seems unfair to expect them to help somehow, like I'm taking advantage. Its something I need to work on!

Leo Sierra wrote: ↑

Sun Oct 20, 2024 9:07 am

This is something I usually forget, to ask my DCs for help. I have to really work at telling myself that they are not here for payment with offerings etc. I still wish I could give them something more, it seems unfair to expect them to help somehow, like I'm taking advantage. Its something I need to work on!

You will get there. It takes time . . . just be patient with yourself.