Satan and Suns

Who could help me grow spiritually.

A therapist's job would be to help you heal rather than spiritual growth. Healing is important to do (or at least get started with) in priority before worrying about spiritual growth beyond a certain point. Healing is not about "fixing you" but finding peace within yourself and acceptance for the things that cannot be changed and learning to love the damaged parts of you and being able to move on from the pain. Severe trauma will impact spiritual growth in some directions because it is too easy to become lost in it and trapped within the grief cycles and the anger which in turn will impact other things one attempts to do.

My best advice is to seek a therapists who is comfortable with alternative spirituality who won't be put off or uncomfortable by the intersection with your healing. Just remember that the focus here will be you and the healing of yourself.

Good luck

I second what Lycana says. It'll be much easier to find therapists open to alternative (to christian) spiritual beliefs than someone who may be a Satanist, and even more rare possibly, a Demonosopher.

A start somewhere is better than waiting forever for "the perfect" start.

Good luck! I hope you find what you need.