I'm undecided. I have doubts with my belief.
Posted: Sat Feb 18, 2017 9:42 pm
I was born and raised as a Christian but then I have doubts with my belief and deconverted to Atheism. It wasn't long because of supernatural phenomenons that happened to Christians, including what happened to my father.
Allow me to tell you a story that happened to my father. He is a hardcore Christian and a judge. One day in court, my father begin to ask a witness. The witness was a dukun (Indonesian, translated to "shaman" in google translate), and actually the most powerful one on the island where he live. "Sir, what's your name?", asked my father. The dukun doesn't not answer. Instead, he looked like muttering some words in silence. My father asked again yet the dukun still not answering. Knowing something is not right, my father started to pray silently (no one knows that my father was praying). And then suddenly, the dukun's chair broke and he fell. Then my father suspended the session. Straightly afterwards, the dukun's relative come to my father saying, "Sorry Sir. We didn't know that you a are a more powerful dukun".
After hearing that story I finally come to a conclusion that God exist and Jesus is God. I no longer have doubts and became a hardcore Christian too. But it was not long until I found out about illogical claims on how Lucifer fallen and became the Devil. I wonder, why did the most perfect being created by God rebel to him, knowing that it would surely leads to eternal damnation in hell? Christians said it was because of Lucifer's pride. But then again, what did he proud of if all of his greatness is from the God? Isn't God the one who should be prideful? Again, Christian said that God had given all his creation free will. Then I wondered, why did Lu chose hell as his free will gift?
Free will in Christian is nonsense to me. Just like nonstampcollector's video on Youtube, God gives a plethora of choices from "a" to "z" but if we chose other than, for instance, "p", then we surely be tortured in hell. If that's the case, why did God bother giving us free will?
So now I'm back to square one. Confused. Even more confused because there's a staunch Atheist that turned Catholic because of Eucharistic Miracles that happened to a host in Buenos Aires (see Youtube).
What do you folks think about this? I really hope you would give elaborate explanations on this.
Thank you.
Allow me to tell you a story that happened to my father. He is a hardcore Christian and a judge. One day in court, my father begin to ask a witness. The witness was a dukun (Indonesian, translated to "shaman" in google translate), and actually the most powerful one on the island where he live. "Sir, what's your name?", asked my father. The dukun doesn't not answer. Instead, he looked like muttering some words in silence. My father asked again yet the dukun still not answering. Knowing something is not right, my father started to pray silently (no one knows that my father was praying). And then suddenly, the dukun's chair broke and he fell. Then my father suspended the session. Straightly afterwards, the dukun's relative come to my father saying, "Sorry Sir. We didn't know that you a are a more powerful dukun".
After hearing that story I finally come to a conclusion that God exist and Jesus is God. I no longer have doubts and became a hardcore Christian too. But it was not long until I found out about illogical claims on how Lucifer fallen and became the Devil. I wonder, why did the most perfect being created by God rebel to him, knowing that it would surely leads to eternal damnation in hell? Christians said it was because of Lucifer's pride. But then again, what did he proud of if all of his greatness is from the God? Isn't God the one who should be prideful? Again, Christian said that God had given all his creation free will. Then I wondered, why did Lu chose hell as his free will gift?
Free will in Christian is nonsense to me. Just like nonstampcollector's video on Youtube, God gives a plethora of choices from "a" to "z" but if we chose other than, for instance, "p", then we surely be tortured in hell. If that's the case, why did God bother giving us free will?
So now I'm back to square one. Confused. Even more confused because there's a staunch Atheist that turned Catholic because of Eucharistic Miracles that happened to a host in Buenos Aires (see Youtube).
What do you folks think about this? I really hope you would give elaborate explanations on this.
Thank you.