Re: Sombre Carnivàle Démoniaque June 12th ~ Meditation 4
Posted: Sat Jun 16, 2018 1:39 pm
Finally got around to doing it here goes
First I saw only blackness, and the walls seemed like they were closing in me. Then on the wall of faces in agony, my mother. That freaked me out a lot.
The contortionist was impressive, but I had trouble feeling the joy, probably still a bit unhinged.
At the mutilation doctor, I noticed a brain hopping around on one leg with one arm. It grabbed a toe and shoved it in its brain-mouth, and blood burst out when it crunched down. This majestic creature chose me. I think it meant I have to use my intelligence to take what I need, even if I have to be ruthless.
The clown showed me the word love, and I remembered old unfulfilled childhood crushes.
At the illusionist, I saw myself in my most selfish ruthless animalistic side, my dead to the world depressed side, and what seemed like a lonely dark shaman. My animalistic side said "you can change your desires", depressed sides said, "go after your desires or they will rot and turn into the animal side or me". Both said something like "don't be like me". The shaman said I need to find balance, not be like any of the three and move forward.
The solar dancer was beautiful, and once in the sun I felt focus and power and saw chains and shackles being burned away.
First I saw only blackness, and the walls seemed like they were closing in me. Then on the wall of faces in agony, my mother. That freaked me out a lot.
The contortionist was impressive, but I had trouble feeling the joy, probably still a bit unhinged.
At the mutilation doctor, I noticed a brain hopping around on one leg with one arm. It grabbed a toe and shoved it in its brain-mouth, and blood burst out when it crunched down. This majestic creature chose me. I think it meant I have to use my intelligence to take what I need, even if I have to be ruthless.
The clown showed me the word love, and I remembered old unfulfilled childhood crushes.
At the illusionist, I saw myself in my most selfish ruthless animalistic side, my dead to the world depressed side, and what seemed like a lonely dark shaman. My animalistic side said "you can change your desires", depressed sides said, "go after your desires or they will rot and turn into the animal side or me". Both said something like "don't be like me". The shaman said I need to find balance, not be like any of the three and move forward.
The solar dancer was beautiful, and once in the sun I felt focus and power and saw chains and shackles being burned away.