So first of all, thank you so much to the admin who accepted me here! And hello everyone!!
I hope we can get along!
And second, I'm literally new to this and all this world. I've always felt drawn to dark things, like movies, colors, the night itself, horror stories etc pretty much the normal, and also to demons. Since I was young I wanted to study demonology and I may have said I wanted to work for the Vatican as an exorcist lol but I was TRULY scared of them, since well, I grow up in a Catholic household not really that devoted but I went to a Catholic school so they scared the shit out of me and every time I searched for something related to demons, the underworld, etc I felt like my poor soul would end up in hell(pretty silly now that I think of it in this new piece of mind)
And so thats my little introduction of my self bc these all leads to something. Past week I think¿? I found a tiktok, really out of nowhere, it popped in my fyp and it had no hashtags I think(and tbh I did interact with content related to manifesting, witchtiktok like they say but I don't really think it was the algorithm) and she was talking about *drums* demons!!(Specifically about Lucifer, Lilith and Leviathan) and it all lead me here.
But it wasn't just because of that, also 2 weeks ago(around july 3rd and 6th ish) my cat had babies, they were four but three died. When the second one died of pneumonia, I was feeling really reaallyy bad, and this name came to my mind; at first I thought it was the name of the Egyptian deity of cats but later I found out Astaroth is actually not that person, nothing alike I think, so I kinda asked her/him to protect the cats and not to make them suffer because I couldn't handle it and in all cases if someone had to suffer it had to be me and not them. The only kitty left is ok, he sleeps with me, he already learned how to purrr, and every time I look at him I think of that day and that I'll have to do something to show my gratitude and respect to her/him(I'm not sure if its a her or him because I read both things so I'm kinda confused)
And since I am new I do not know how to do that, and I'm not even sure if all that happened it really happened or I'm becoming schizophrenic(I taked antipsychotics meds a few years ago bc I had really weird thoughts so I'm scared they're poppin up again). And I'm so sorry this is that loong but in resume, I'm looking for help to educate myself and enter this new journey
Ps: english isnt my mother language pardon my mistakes
Ps 2: and if you're here thanks hedgebelawitch on tiktok for leading me here!!
