Nightmare Meditation 6: Journey to the Brain Breaker

[ysabeau]

Nightmare Carnivale of the Damned presents....



Meditation 6 - Journey to the Brain Breaker

The mind is a fragile thing.

It can be broken.

It can be destroyed.

The mind holds memories,

personality.

Everything that is sacred.

It is everything that we are.

Everything that we have experienced.

What happens when it is destroyed?

When do we cease to become who we are?

Within the Nightmare Carnivale, identity is stripped away.

Nothing remains.

It is a place that shifts and morphs, twisting into terrifying and surreal forms.

A place where everything is fractured, everything is broken.

Especially the mind.

Nothing is as it seems.

Nothing is safe.

It is amazing how fast things can change

How can we be deceived

What was once innocent have become twisted,

What was once fun now is a source of madness,

This world breaks minds, shatters souls,

and sends one spiralling into the darkness of insanity.

The Brain is broken, and we lose who we are forever.

Listen to the Guided Meditation Below to Journey to the Brain Breaker




Credits for Music

Music for this track is provided by Mystic Ambience
(https://www.youtube.com/@TheMysticOfficial)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6OuWfXxsjus
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Circus Monkey
by Alexander Nakarada

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Death and Axes
by Kevin MacLeod

Kevin MacLeod Youtube

[Lycana]

Going into the zipper like ride, the monsters converge on the ride as it moves, whipping as they attack and claw on it. The ride is devouring them, breaking them and they scream with hunger, rage, and pain. The cart fills slowly with spiders and centipedes, black ichor seeping in as phantoms of the dead scream and wail, the black ichor oozing from them and filling the cart I'm in. It splatters me in cold goo and then my shadow nightmare side stands in front of me and smiles just before I'm drawn into my own nightmare realm.

I am in a dark, gray forest. The trees all around me are bare and dead but they draped heavily with thick webs and drift in the air. The webs touch me, much to my horror and I see that the trees and crawling with spiders with the occasional centipede twisting among the roots. The black ichor is dripping from the branches. The dead forest seems to move subtly with creaking sounds and the moon rises high in the sky. Suddenly a flat rectangular cage comes around me, the metal against my front and black and someone locks it. I scream as I'm hoisted into the trees. I'm suspended there among the trees, becoming one with them as the branches come around me.

Then the ride is over and the cage releases. I stumble out, my heart pounding and look around as blood and gore squelches under my feet and see all the dead things around me.

[karenwpi]

I arrive at the Nightmare Carnivale right away. It is so familiar now and I seem to know my way around.

Matador greets me in his tent and I see his orb & wonder what's next. Another Madam Orna request...

I can see everything as it unfolds, the Brain Breaker ride, the bodies strewn in varying states across the grounds. The sky, the land, the trees. The colors are bland, washed out. Greys, blacks, browns.

Once again, I am in a dissociative state and I am both on the ride spinning and also above watching.

The me watching above is protective and waiting. As everything unfolds, she seems to distance herself and endeavor to stay one step ahead. Really, neither feels like me, yet both feel very much to be myself. Very odd to be so dissociated during a meditation again. Typically I gain with this issue, but the Nightmare Carnivale throws me to my first instincts in response to danger. My mind shifts to recognize my plural system and all of our youngest & all of our oldest materialize. One by one, they show themselves.

When we arrive at our own Nightmare Carnivale, the me watching above takes swift action. She recites our most pronounced repetitive nightmares rapidly and then takes our hand and walks us away. We leave with her and just wait.

At the end, we grasp that our nightmares have become rides. Learning opportunities. They are resolved and they are not nightmares anymore. We have conquered the fears and know how to sit quietly. Patiently waiting until the blossom unfolds.

A Dark Flower. That is my nightmare carnivale. Bears, people, dragons, bugs. Chasing, swarming, hunting, tricking. Consuming, ....

We briefly consider the rides & understand one is a creepy earwig that mass multiplies internally. How to defeat? Annihilation at the base beginning. Going backwards in time and changing so it never begins.

She grasps my hand again and we walk away. No longer a slave to yesterday. Freed and liberated.

[Dragonoake]

I think I have finally figured out why I have so much trouble with the guided meditations.
I don't know if it's the ADHD, but my perspective is different enough that it seems to work better if I listen to the mediation a couple times to get the essence of it, that do it my own way. Sometimes, the format is completely different, but it seems to work for me.

In this case, I found myself working for SnS, possibly as a courier, and I was trapped on a lockdown floor of a building, similar to the Alzheimer's Ward in a nursing home.
Nobody wanted to talk to me (I suspected that the fact that it said SnS on it probably didn't help matters), let alone tell me how to get out, so I was let wandering around alone looking for the door.

At one point a resident, who reminded me of one of the guys at the VA home who also almost never spoke, led me to a closet in the hallway which had stalactites hanging just inside the door, and a couple steps running into the wall where he pulled down the corner of the ceiling and crawled inside. I had gathered that I was supposed to follow him, but I didn't want to follow a possibly insane man and end up trapped on the roof or in a space where nobody would find me.
I didn't occur to me until later that the closet used to be a stairway and would probably lead to another closet on the next floor where I could take the elevator back to the lobby.

Plus, it was multi-dimensional so even when I was walking down a country road, I was still trapped on that floor. Finally, a black dog came running down the country road, transformed into something best described as a horseless carriage, and took me away from that floor.

[Dragonoake]

How to defeat? Annihilation at the base beginning.

Release...
The Kraken!!

Hmmm...
A monster so primal and uncontrollable that even Poseidon was a little afraid of it...
Sounds like a Void Beast to me

And where can we find one?
Off to the carousel!!