Satan and Suns

The transformed Silhou is chasing after me. My vision shifts to a dark spectrum as I run effortlessly. I spread my wings and attempt to take to the air but Silhou knocks me to the ground. I hit hard but roll to my feet and run again. My plants spring up forming a barrier. He tears through it but it provides a buffer. I glide through the darkness and shift to my shadow form. I dart around him, long thorny vines whipping from me. They tangle and strike him and he roars as he spins toward me but I shift away and appear on his other side. I gather lightening into a whip and strike him repeatedly with it as he repeatedly bellows and attempts to charge. A phantom of my dark tree rises from the soil and I draw upon my power, bringing massive networks of lightening on him as the predatory plants I had seeded through the carnival bind him. Its last for a time and almost appear to be weakening him but he breaks through and charges me renewed purpose.

The solar demoness then comes and saves my ass and takes me from there to her tent where I am safe and learn about the objects before returning from the carnival.

I can only feel heartache, and the urge to run. Seeing the demons twisted into predators.

The demons who so sweetly welcome in everyone? Now, are trying to eat me. And who knows who their victims have been, and what became of them. Hearing Siiow scream and charge at me, but his limbs seemed broken, yet impossibly fast.

I get ready for a fight as several others join his chase, and then the light comes through. Seeing the solar demoness, they run. Not before snarling once more, and running off into the shadows. She looks so sad and broken down. Like she's not well. It's almost like she's completely gone.

She takes me to safety, and the meditation ends.

The first time I did this meditation was with the group in discord. I felt very liberated and safe the whole time. My skills flowed naturally. The second time, more information comes and a slight twist occurs in a few areas!

This second time, the countdown numbers are bones & Ey' is using them as drum sticks. He performs drumrolls with three bones, two bones, one bone. Ey' being my Mutilation Death Cat companion.

We are on the way to the Càrnivale & our recently deceased Catholic Pope is there & also Ey' and my other Mutilation companion Ynax. I realize why the Pope (whose name I don't even know) is there when I tell him to stay with me, that he is safe, and I am holding his hand. I find myself saying outloud: "you spoke about nightmares coming real upon death all the time, so here we are & you shall stay and see."

There are many things at play this trip. Ey' and Ynax are there, but I am capable of handling myself and Dead One P. (Hahaha, I'm unsure that this ghost will stick around in my entourage of Dead Ones!!) I am responsible for him this whole journey and can see him really well here and there. He's definitely in the beginning of death states!

My love for Siiow, my love for language and storytelling, these factors cause a softness for Siiow and I send him through a portal so he can be safe and I don't have to extra manage him in this mutilated condition. My Dark energies course and strengthen. I am in full command and bring myself and my Dead friend up above to watch and listen. We hear, we see, we respond to keep us at the same distance from the mayhem. It's sublime, powerful, beautiful.

Zenithyaah's appearance is perfect timing as my attention span begins wandering. The little human me sitting on the front porch in the dark part of dawn & Zenithyaah arriving as the first light appeared! The objects from the Solar Realm, I had forgotten & I see them as intrusions. However the Nightmare has to end at some point, so I gaze upon them and then return to my body.

Being chased by those I once adored, something snaps and I howl with sadness. The demons cover their ears and retreated. She stayed and cried, in a ball in the carnival, and I could not move her.